Thursday, April 29, 2021

Words that have Sustained - Part II - Lent 2021

Lent...another period of waiting...preparation...

Weren't we just doing that for Advent?
If I'm honest, I am often tired of the waiting
For what's next...for the already not yet
For this to be over.

So we continue to wait
And be present
Attending to the small and the great things all around
As we continue to journey together.

More words that continue to sustain me... from people and places that inspire and move me.

Josh Garrels The Light Came Down was my steady music companion this past Advent and Christmas. I don't know if I'll be able to post every day during Lent but his closing song on that record feels like a good connection from Advent to Lent and a good starting place to begin this Lenten journey. 


Lost and weary traveler, searching for the way to go.
Stranger, heavy-hearted, longing for someone to know.
May you find a light.
May you find a light.
May you find a light to guide you home.
There are weary travelers, searching everywhere you go.
Strangers who are searching, longing deeply to be known


Previously Lent series posts focused on a single author/artist - Anne Lamott, Rich Mullins, Jonathan Heppner, as well as Kris Rock and Scott Dewey's Meal from Below book. This year I don't have one person (but I'll be pulling from some of these previous sources) and some themes are starting to emerge - certainly the words of poets, the importance of place, and something about the journey...pilgrimage perhaps (those of you who know me know I always appreciate alliteration!) - or perhaps that is just the ongoing theme of life.

To start with, a reminder of the importance of poets and poetry...

'The word workmanship (in Ephesians 2:10) is the word poema in Greek, from which we get the English word poem. We are God’s poem or poetry in the world. What a beautiful image! Whatever else the urban poor (and I would add, all of us really) need today, they need more poetry and less prose. Our exhaustive prose has become a millstone. It’s filled with monologue and imposes blame because it is so often derived from places of privilege and power. In this end, it suffocates, even when is aim is to liberate. Perhaps this is why the great Hebrew prophets were also poets. Perhaps this is why Jesus told riddles and stories. Poets let the air in, and create room for us to breathe again.' Meal from Below pp34-35 Kris Rocke and Scott Dewey

While the locals in Bermuda would disagree, there really aren't cold winter days, so I Included this photo of trees taken during a quick trip to DC in January this year. 

Winter Morning
When I can no longer say thank you
for this new day and the waking into it,
for the cold scrape of the kitchen chair
and the ticking of the space heater glowing
orange as it warms the floor near my feet,
I know it is because I’ve been fooled again
by the selfish, unruly man 
who lives in me
and believes he deserves only safety
and comfort. But if I pause as I do now,
and watch the streetlights outside winking
off one by one like old men closing their
cloudy eyes, if I listen to my tired neighbors
slamming car doors hard against the morning
and see the steaming coffee in their mugs
kissing their chapped lips as they sip and
exhale each of their worries white into
the icy air around their faces—then I can
remember this one life is a gift each of us
was handed and told to open: Untie the bow
and tear off the paper, look inside
and be grateful for whatever you find
even if it is only the scent of a tangerine
that lingers on the fingers long after
you’ve finished eating it.
-James Crews


'Now if I hear the sound of the genuine in me, and if you hear the sound of the genuine in you, it is possible for me to go down in me and come up in you. So that when I look at myself through your eyes having made that pilgrimage, I see in me what you see in me and the wall that separates and divides will disappear, and we will become one because the sound of the genuine makes the same music.' -Howard Thurman

(More from Street Psalms and Kris Rocke...Thurman was a contemplative activist through and through. He recognized that direct encounter with God and direct action with humanity is where the Gospel comes alive. Encounter and action is the way of Jesus.)

From my Meal from Below Lent series five years ago...still good words for today...

How do we embrace being fully human, open and mindful and present? Perhaps if we can't embrace it, we start by not judging...just being aware and attentive to all that swirls within and around us - the beauty and the brokenness...

We are forever running from and neglecting the deepest mysteries of our human lives-missing the truth that our humanness itself bears the gift of our salvation. As Paula D’Arcy observes, God comes to us disguised as our lives. God comes most naturally through broken people and broken places and well as our own broken experience to say, ‘I am here!’ This is the way of the Lord…God typically resists the spectacular appearance, knowing how prone we are to deny and escape these earthen vessels in favor of some heavenly vision. That is why TS Elliot claimed that the Incarnation is always in the ‘unattended moment.’ Meal from Below p 44 Kris Rocke and Scott Dewey


A liberated soul is a pierced soul, one that has experienced the piercing of its own violence, and one that has experienced the piercing of grace. The liberated soul is secure and at peace, held in mercy by the graceful One – Jesus, the Prince of Peace. This is our anointing. Meal from Below pp50-51 by Kris Rocke and Scott Dewey

God does not send us out into the desert to die. Though we may feel that we have been in the wilderness of Lent for a long time this year, we are not without lots of well-seasoned guides. It is reassuring to know that thousands have walked out into the desert, led by God, before us and not only survived but thrived and grown in intimacy with God as a result of their experiences.


Beloved Is Where We Begin
If you would enter
into the wilderness,
do not begin
without a blessing.
Do not leave
without hearing
who you are:
Beloved,
named by the One
who has traveled this path
before you.
Do not go
without letting it echo
in your ears,
and if you find
it is hard
to let it into your heart,
do not despair.
That is what this journey is for.
I cannot promise
this blessing will free you
from danger,
from fear,
from hunger
or thirst,
from the scorching
of sun
or the fall
of the night.
But I can tell you
that on this path
there will be help.
I can tell you
that on this way
there will be rest.
I can tell you
that you will know
the strange graces
that come to our aid
only on a road
such as this,
that fly to meet us
bearing comfort
and strength,
that come alongside us
for no other cause
than to lean themselves
toward our ear
and with their
curious insistence
whisper our name:
Beloved.
Beloved.
Beloved.
- Jan Richardson


One of the greatest teachers God gives us is the place where we are. - Dwight Friesen
A good journey begins with knowing where you are and being willing to go somewhere else. - Richard Rohr.
(Overlooking Horseshoe Bay from the Fairmont Southampton, Bermuda)


Sometimes you have to let go of the picture of what you thought it would be like and learn to find joy in the story you are actually living. - Rachel Marie Martin
Growth is painful. Change is painful. But nothing is as painful as staying stuck somewhere you don't belong. - Mandy Hale
(the bench - part 2, Bermuda)


Though your destination is not yet clear
You can trust the promise of this opening;
Unfurl yourself into the grace of beginning
That is at one with your life's desire.
-John O'Donohue

Saturday, April 10, 2021

Bermuda faves and farewell for now....

Regular updates of the blog got a little behind since Christmas! After a quiet, peaceful, and somewhat lonely Christmas, another guest was coming to stay at the amazing Bridge house (Airbnb #3 - see my previous updated housing post) so I had to move on - but I was very happy to move back to where I started my time in Bermuda... at Airbnb #1 with Karen and Danny. 

As the temperature dipped down into the 60's I still got some good swimming and snorkeling time but the time definitely decreased as even with a wetsuit jacket it was beginning to get a little chilly and I could only stay in the water for 15-20 minutes at a time before I got started getting cold. I began spending more time out of the water and  exploring the island from tip to tip, visiting a few more museums, learning more history and of course comparing fish sandwiches. 

By the end for February I was munching on loquats as they came into peak season all over the island and the Suriname Cherry bushes and hedgerows were covered in delicate white flowers in preparation for their next season. And I was preparing for my next season - bidding farewell to my island home, not knowing what lay ahead but knowing for sure that Bermuda will beckon me back. 

On March 1 I flew back to Seattle - not the ideal time weather wise to return to the Pacific Northwest but...

(Below - a few photos of many giving a small taste of my time in Bermuda)














Friday, January 1, 2021

Words that have Sustained

During Advent I posted a series on fb of words that have sustained me this year...as the year comes to an end, I'm copying some of those posts here. Grateful for their companionship.

Bermuda Railway Trail

'I believe in God's very real and unshakeable love for me and for every person. The value that brings to our lives is what gives dignity to the paths we walk, whether the paths were of our choosing or not.'

- Amy Grant


Royal Navy Cemetery, Bermuda

“I beg you, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.” - Rainer Maria Wilke

Bermuda, View from Boaz Island

Keep watch, dear Lord, with those who work, or watch or weep this night, and give your angels charge over those who sleep. Tend the sick, Lord Christ; give rest to the weary, bless the dying, soothe the suffering, pity the afflicted, shield the joyous; and all for your love's sake. - Amen

The Book of Common Prayer

Gibbs lighthouse, Bermuda

You can't go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending. - C.S. Lewis

Upnor House, Boaz Island, Bermuda

Life is grace. Sleep is forgiveness. The night absolves. Darkness wipes the slate clean, not spotless to be sure, but clean enough for another day's chalking. - Frederick Buechner, The Alphabet of Grace.


You have permission to rest! You don't have to fix everything that's broken. You don't have to try to make everyone happy. It is time to rest. It is time to find refreshment for your body and soul. (not sure who said it) - with a little nod to my Malaysian roots...





You have traveled too fast over false ground;
Now your soul has come to take you back.
Take refuge in your senses, open up
To all the small miracles you rushed through.
Become inclined to watch the way of rain
When it falls slow and free.
Imitate the habit of twilight,
Taking time to open the well of color
That fostered the brightness of day.
Draw alongside the silence of stone
Until its calmness can claim you.
Be excessively gentle with yourself.
JOHN O'DONOHUE
Excerpt from, 'For One Who is Exhausted' found in his books: Benedictus (Europe) / To Bless the Space Between Us (US) Ordering Info: https://johnodonohue.com/store
I posted this on fb a year ago and it has stayed with me ever since.

Tuesday, November 24, 2020

Eating/Grazing/Food observations - Updated

If you are familiar with Bermuda you know most of its food is shipped from the US (most grocery stores especially the fruit and veg produce section looks remarkably like any produce aisle in the US) which makes everything really expensive. Like $1.89 an apple expensive (not $1.89 a pound) or $10 for the liquid hazelnut coffee mate that my parents enjoy so much (sorry parents, guess I outed you there!) which can be found often for $3 in the US. So I'm trying to be thoughtful in how and what I buy. However should I run out of money and have to survive off of foraging the island, here's how I would survive. 

1. Fish. Yes, I love looking at them under water but if push came to shove...

2. The island is teeming with wild chickens. I asked my first airbnb hosts if any local residents ever snatch a chicken out of the tree where they roost at night. It was a definite no. Guess people are not going hungry here in Bermuda.



3. Fruit of the island - prickly pear, Bay Grape (sea grape or cocoplum in other parts of the world), Surinam Cherry, Natal plum, loquats -  and of course in season you can find bananas, mangos and oranges also that people have growing in their yards. And should you need some allspice, the trees are abundant everywhere as well!

Prickly Pear, Surinam Cherry, Sea/Bay Grape

Prickly Pear

Surinam Cherry





Surinam Cherries are new to me having a citrusy taste especially when less ripe (with hints of not fully ripe mango) and as they darken up becoming quite sweet. It's not really the season for them right now but they are popular at this time of year, looking like little pumpkins! More info on the Surinam Cherry here.

Sea/Bay Grape

My Housing - updated

For those that want to see and know a little bit more about my housing situation in Bermuda...I arrived here having only booked a month at my first ever airbnb which turned out to be a gem run by hosts Karen and Danny. It was actually one of the first airbnb's to get started on the island a few years ago. And it turned out to be such a beautiful restful space for my first six weeks on the island. From the moment I entered the front gate which is an old wagon wheel (more on that in a moment), pushing open the beautiful Bermudian Cedar exterior door, walking past the pool and up  some steps onto a terrace under a frangipani tree to my studio which had peaceful music playing as I entered, I knew I had been given a gift. Angel Mews as it's AirBnB link describes, definitely provided peace and tranquility. If you ever need a place to stay here in Bermuda, try to get this place. 







Typical Bermuda water catching roof

Sunrise...every day

I loved just watching out the windows every day and seeing the light and the greenery. And I loved hearing the little tiny frogs lull me to sleep every night and watching the lizards scamper about during the day. Horseshoe Bay, the closest of the south island beaches was only a 15-20 minute walk away.



Tiny frogs - this one was a rescue from the pool!